Self doubt - where does it come from? I am reading the wonderful 'Women Who Run with The Wolves' and so much of it comepletely resonates with me and how much of our lives as Women (and Men) what our experiences have been have created so much of how we react to life now. The suppression of our ancestors! Lets not deny this. It sounds obvious of corse, but so much of what we don't know too, is playing a powerful role. This song by Alela Diane was inspired by a dream in which all her anxieties came together, and I love the way the director of the video has made it connected with the nostalgia that it depicts in the lyrics.
The book 'Women Who Run With Wolves' describes how the Post-World War II generation of women grew up in a time where women were infantilized and treated as property, they were kept as fallow gardens... but thankfully there was always wild seed which arrived on the wind. What they wrote was unauthorised, yet they blazed away anyway. Their paintings went unrecognised, yet it fed their souls. They had to beg for spaces and instruments needed for their arts and yet if none were forthcoming, they made spaces in caves, trees, woods and closets. Dancing was forbidden! So they danced in the forests, basements or anywhere where no one was watching. Self decoration caused suspicion. Girls tightly girdled, muzzled and reigned were called 'nice' and those other females who slipped collar for a moment or two were called 'bad'. So like so many women of this age, they lived their lives as disguised creatures.
What are we as a society living like now, do you think?????
Is it that every man and woman, based on our own ancestry, need to do the work of soulful reclamation?
I know a lot and a little of my own ancestry, but one story I can share is how my Nan and her two siblings were evacuated from London to Somerset during the War, born to two Italian parents and when they arrived were drenched in jewellery and fine dress. During this time, they were immediately branded gypsies by the locals, the moment they placed their first foot in the supposedly openminded Avalon hills of Glastonbury and the family they stayed with treated them terribly as a result of jealously or lack of acceptance I can only imagine. The locals couldn't fathom these three adorned beauties walking the country lanes, yet my Nan and her sister settled there and made everlasting impressions. My Nan married my grandfather who was a humble local, and my Aunt married my Great Uncle who was a dairy farmer and lover of the arts, wrote incredible poetry and loved all music. My nan went on to raise four boys and juggle several jobs, she was the mother earth of our entire family to this day, she is missed. My Aunt connected with music and theatre, jazz especially, and dedicated her life to my uncles farm and their magic connection as lovers. Their brother, my Great Uncle, moved away and continued the family tradition of cutting hair, but sadly passed away young, yet handsome and always smiling. I guess, what I love about this story and witnessing these two females especially in my life (both very strong role models of mine, whom i adore) is that they are two of the most strongest women I have ever come to meet. That even during the early years of their life being moved away from their parents in to the unknown (away from their pack), was how they arrived just as they were and remained that way, even when their self decoration caused suspicion and exclusion! They were the wild seed that arrived on the wind! Everyday till the day my nan passed, she was immaculate and positive, as was my aunt and she now in her late 80's and in recent ill health, continues smiling and to be a force of nature and inspiration to anyone that has the pleasure to get to know her. And, even though marrying in to a very english way of life, the suppression of the times for women, both these beauties kept the strength of their roots alive... and most importantly, they stayed connected with their 'Wild' side!
'Wild woman', what is meant by that????!!!
It's a woman way, a womans knowing, a womans intuition - drawing upon the archetype of the wolf, its the keen sensing, playful spirit and a heightened capacity for devotion. An inquiring, possessed of great endurance and strength, deeply intuitive, concerned with their young, their pack! Adaptable, fiercely stalwart and very brave.
SO LISTEN UP! ... If the words above are not words you would use to describe you or your feminine side, why not? Have you lost touch with the Wild inside of you. Is it time for a retrieval of the beauteous and natural form within you, the wild and innate instinctual Self.
If we believe that everything is an energy, it could be said that when experiencing these feelings of self doubt, it is a sign that everything needs to be brought back in to balance. A return of the Wild in you to balance out the carved more acceptable form as defined by an unconscious culture, or the more intellectually acceptable shape by those who claim to be the sole bearers of consciousness, possibly?! There are many healing practices that we can gravitate towards to help return us to this place.
Typically, the shamanic practitioner sees health issues as being connected to the loss of energy, or power, and will work to balance these issues, often seeking to return lost energy, remove negativity and return the client to wholeness.
The most interesting part to remember however is that nothing in life comes without responsibility, even making the steps to a brighter outlook requires a responsibility of the individual to make a commitment to making changes towards a more positive, healthier way of being.
AND YES... THIS BLOG IS ALL ABOUT YOGA! A practice of unity.
I dont know about you, but there are some super powerful life changing shifts occurring right now and the feeling that I am getting is the need to start to prepare for hibernation. I guess that Autumn is coming and that in itself is enough of a reason. What are the stars doing? The planets? I am no astrologer but I am predicting they are making some mental moves up there. A friend brought attention to me that maybe it has something to do with Saturn Return at my ripe old age ;)
HOWEVER... My return is to YOGA!!! In every curve ball, in every high and low, I once found Yoga at the youthful age of 15 and since then, i've never trusted anything more to resurrect the self in me than that. Y O G A.
We could say that through Yoga, womens lives can now be lived through freedom if they have a desire to support their own vitality. Watch the wonderful documentary Yoga Woman about the benefits in the present day world, as its not always been this way for women in Yoga. There is a lovely chapter in a book entitled Yoni Shakti 'From exclusion to initiation: men teaching women, women teaching the world' that details the History of Women in Yoga.
Yoga is not a myth, buried in oblivon. It is the most valuable inheritance of the present. It is the essential need of today and the culture of tomorrow. - Saraswati.
In the absence of personal transformation, there is an absence of social transformation, says Deepak Chopra. You may then step back and see the world through a much broader lens.
SO IS THIS JUST ABOUT WOMEN! NO! IT'S ABOUT YOU, ME AND YOUR NEIGHBOUR. ITS ABOUT WHAT DROPS YOU BEYOND THE BODY AND GETS YOU TO LOOK AT YOUR OWN VALUES AND YOUR UNDERSTANDING OF THE MIND BODY CONNECTION AND HOW THIS AWARENESS CAN MANIFEST TO BECOME A MORE EMBODIED ART OF LIVING - THIS APPLYS TO EVERYONE!!!
Be Wide Open as sing the Chemical Brothers! (What an incredible video)!!!!!!!! I have shared this before but felt drawn to share again as it continues to inspire me to keep working hard in physical body experiences and in mind to recode how we feel, think and be in this world.
The lyrics in yet another Chemical Brothers track really motivates me tonight to stop over thinking and 'just do your best ... GO!!!'
Find the kind heart, rest your beating soul.
You are brave!
Going back to the Wild Woman... Its not bad girls... such as MIA swaggers around singing. Living fast, dying young, bad girls doing it well. Na. It's about ALL GENDERS connecting with your intuition to create positive change.
“Having a lover/friend who regards you as a living growing criatura, being, just as much as the tree from the ground, or a ficus in the house, or a rose garden out in the side yard... having a lover and friends who look at you as a true living breathing entity, one that is human but made of very fine and moist and magical things as well... a lover and friends who support the ciatura in you... these are the people you are looking for. They will be the friends of your soul for life. Mindful choosing of friends and lovers, not to mention teachers, is critical to remaining conscious, remaining intuitive, remaining in charge of the fiery light that sees and knows.”
― Clarissa Pinkola Estés, Women Who Run With the Wolves: Myths and Stories of the Wild Woman Archetype
Maybe Mariee was on to something when she says remember you could weave fire with those Wild Eyes
IN YOGA CLASS THIS WEEK... Lets be Wild! Lets delve in to a practice that supports and loves one another and brings thanks for being in this world with not just you but with I too. Let your animal nature free!
Be bold, be beautiful, be free. Unlimited. Time.
This woman blows my mind... in class this week we will delight in her music while we move our animal spirits.