This week i'd simply like to share with you an incredible video by Tara Brach, that offers up reflection on doubt.
Doubt is an affliction or mental aversion, one of the Kleshas in Yoga. The Kleshas by Patanjali are the obstacles that we put in the way, ultimately allowing the Self to get in its own way of living.
Dvesha, is essentially the compliment to attachment or aversion. In dvesha, we allow our fixation on the things we perceive as negative or “bad” to prevent us from enjoying and appreciating what is, including the possibility that “poor” outcomes could in fact ultimately prove to be for the best. Again, aversion can take many forms, from judgment to fear to disdain, but each ultimately brings the same negative consequence in terms of peace with ourselves, the people around us, and ultimately life as a whole.
Often doubt is masked by this frustration, pain or recklessness. It is a mental fluctuation, deeply rooted in the mind. It has changeable qualities, which on a plus side it is something that we can work on. It teaches us to practice consistency and to be constant, so not to continue in allowing these fluctuations to have power or to run away. Doubt surfacing can be considered to be a wake up for a clearer understanding of the Self at a profound level and requires us to 'stay', to be open not closed when we see it arising and to learn to begin to train the doubt as an actual vital force for growth and deeper understanding of the Self.
Stay longer and be still.
Rainer Maria Rilke said it best in these few lines:
“And your doubt can become a good quality if you train it. It must become knowing, it must become criticism. Ask it, whenever it wants to spoil something for you, why something is ugly, demand proofs from it, test it, and you will find it perhaps bewildered and embarrassed, perhaps also protesting. But don't give in, insist on arguments, and act in this way, attentive and persistent, every single time, and the day will come when, instead of being a destroyer, it will become one of your best workers -- perhaps the most intelligent of all the ones that are building your life.”
Becoming a better practitioner of this is like being a student all the time. And for those who are, become very clear about the battle of doubt and learning to practice the Yogic Sutras, not just the physical practices.
So build your life in a way that we can learn from the doubt, remain a student and become more open to the doubt to dissolve fear and stay with it, Stay in it. In order to dive deeper, lay the foundations and build our lives.
I've been listening to this tune on repeat all week and it seems to fit well so have a listen.
Namaste all x