Shadows on the path...

TOTAL SOLAR ECLIPSE | NEW MOON in LEO rises as the Queen within takes her throne on the seat of the Heart of Love. 

Divine Feminine energy comes through the veil to awaken humanity to its true power in love.

A new way is calling as the outmoded, short-sighted, repressive ways of the Patriarchy are no longer tolerable or permissible. We the people awaken and new leaders step forth.

Together we rise in consciousness for an inclusive humanity. Together, we cast away the illusion of separatism and step forth to heal the divides within ourselves, our partnerships and our communities.

Each of us has the power to shift and realign with the heart, as we let go, forgive, ask for forgiveness, and move through our collective grief to our seat of personal power within the heart of love.

“The Earth, Moon and Sun line up so well at totality that we’ll get a chance to see the Sun’s corona, it’s outer atmosphere. It will look like a black hole surrounded by iridescent, scintillating, delicate colors.

“This is a chance for all of us to wake up to our unity, and our responsibilities to each other, to Mother Earth and to the future.

“But first we have to be at one with ourselves…”

“This eclipse occurs on one of the four ancient ‘royal’ stars – Regulus, the King. It is the star at the heart of the constellation of Leo.

“For thousands of years, this bright star was in tropical Leo but in 2012, it moved by precession into Virgo, the Virgin. So while it still represents the King, the underlying energy is the Goddess’ love…”

“Because the Full Moon in Aquarius this month was sandwiched between two Leo New Moons, our cosmic instructions want us to bring our sovereignty, power, leadership, gifts and visions into the world.

“We need to learn the right way to use personal power.

“Leo rules the Heart and this eclipse opens the heart of the lion. May our collective masculine energy focus on being warriors of Love and Light, releasing the Leo shadow characteristics of arrogance, self-importance, overweening pride and the need to be right.

“The eclipse’s effect might last from 6 months to over 2 years, so don’t expect a miracle on August 21st. Take the energy in and let it move around you and settle in. The results will come.

“Especially watch what happens on September 3rd, when Mars reaches the eclipse degree. Also, Mercury retrograde will station on the degree of this eclipse, 28* Leo, on September 5th. You might get a hint of what new thing you’ve birthed then…”

“Sabian symbol for the Sun and Moon at 29* Leo is: A Mermaid Emerges From The Ocean Waves Ready For Rebirth In Human Form. Mermaids are magical beings who can navigate the great realm of the Collective Unconscious. Psychologically, they represent a new feeling and energy that arises out of our collective longing for a different life.

“For a mermaid to be reborn in a human form symbolizes the incarnation of that new feeling attuned to the World Soul. A new beginning for the "Divine Feminine".

⚬ N E W M O O N  ☀︎ S O L A R E C L I P S 

Source: Mysticmamma .com
 

On a personal level, confusing situations and troubled feelings stirred up by shadow will only arise because they are ready to be cleared. While this may be a difficult period to navigate, if you can steady yourself in the storm through spiritual practice—prayer and meditation are especially potent around this time—you may find yourself feeling much lighter and freer on the other side.

So in class this week we explore the shadows we cast and move through a flow that brings the light! 

See you on the mat folks.

TUESDAY PM YOGA i-D 19:30-21:00 Matter Wholefoods, BS5.

Namaste x

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In Vedic astrology, solar eclipses are said to accelerate social evolution, often through agitation, which may present as some kind of crisis or confusion.

Live, swirl and return to centre. Time is not a given.

"The beauty of truth is that you don't have to change your life. You change how you live your life. Death is a great teacher - but who lives with that level of awareness?" - The Untethered Soul.

It can teach us to look at how much time and energy that we put in to things that we 'Think' we need and it can ask us - what are you doing with your life?

Every moment matters. 

It is not so much what you are doing but how much of you is doing it. Be here and now. Be willing to say what needs to be said and do what needs to be done. Be fully present not worrying about the next moment.

Become bolder and more open.

"The only thing to get from Life is the growth that comes from experiencing it. Your interaction with life is your most meaningful relationship."

I was struggling recently with the subsets of life that you can easily get swept away with thinking is it, and then hit the wall of wondering what the meaning of life is?! It is a brick solid wall when you try to intellectualise it. The only option is to surrender and release the expectation and the fear of life and in fact the fear of death and to actually begin to contemplate that the meaning of life is the willingness to live it. That it is not a particular thing, event, person, formula, but it is the willingness to experience life events, people and the things that arise. The inevitable is death. So therefore why continue to deny it and why not begin to live presently in every moment. Embracing it. Fully! Soak it up and make choices to be experiencing whatever it is as if it will never happen again. 

This is where caution appears, as life does not need to become the cliche living it to the full. Far from it. It is about fully, completely and totally embracing life just as it is. Not to fulfil all the wants, wishes and desires that you suppress. But to see the beauty that is right before us. It is precious. It only lasts a lifetime and we do not know how long that will be. How could you ever know.

I have had a few experiences recently, where in my actual day to day and interactions with others, you can do nothing but hold this understanding deep in your own heart and you can not convince another to do the same, because all of it is a choice. I'd have loved to just say 'STOP FIGHTING HEAD AND HEART AND JUST LIVE, DO, ENJOY THE HERE AND NOW". But thats impossible. As inevitably we all try and mould our existence and gain the maximum from it. I guess we are all just experiencing and then concluding as we go as to what we want, the way we want to live and so on. Putting this all in to practice is the tricky part. We could all devote our lives to the study and the full embrace of this, however we would then be denying ourselves of the rich experiences that day to day life brings in so many ways. I choose to live here and now in the thick of reality and see the richness, the beauty and the learnings that come with that, each and everyday. It may not look cool. it may not be easy, it may restrict the ambitions fully being realised - but does it?! Or does it in fact bring more to the table than one could ever wish for. As we are individuals, yes, but are we separate and is our life defined by these things or can we move deeper in to spirit and fully transform the way we live by doing so?

Pay attention. Let each experience be whole and complete.

Let there be more depth in the experience in the time that you are given. Things are temporary and just passing through time and space, so while they are there, let them fill you. If the experience isn't pleasant, understand that it will pass and be grateful to still be here and now. 

So, picture the pendulum swinging... The yin and the yang, the feminine and the masculine, the expansion and contraction, bonding and doing, hot and cold.... Everything has two extremes and we can not be just one way or another. Life keeps moving. The pendulum keeps swinging when we live this way.

'The Tao' is the centre! Where your energies are centred, not pushing or pulling in either direction. It is in the middle. This middle place is peaceful, the forces that exist here are balanced and quiet. There is not conflict. There are no extremes. All the opposing extremes are woven in harmony to find its own centre point in each individual circumstance. When you stop swinging between the opposites you find you have so much more energy to remain on the central road. Focused. Content. Living here and now and seeing what happens. The extremes have effects on you and these can also come from the lack of ability of others to honour the middle way and be swinging from one way to another or being so rigid that they are unable to sit on the centre point and let the gift of life present itself. These are imbalanced behaviour patterns. We see them if we examine the extremes. When you try to maintain the extremes nothing moves forward, nothing can grow, it becomes a waste of time and energy- it is exhausting. 

You may use the effort that goes in to the extremes to more productive aspects of life. Leave the extremes and the pendulum will come to an equal rhythm and a place of calm. That is all. Do not participate any longer and the pendulum stop and you will be filled with energy.

The power is its emptiness.The swirl of life draws its energy from the centre and the centre draws its energy from the swirl of life.

The centre is dynamic and fluid, not static. It is finding balances by moving from point to point as life moves and that is its beauty. It is free. It is effortless and it is calm. You must find the ability to feel life, not try and see life. You can never see what is about to happen, you can stay in touch by feeling your way, feeling in to the extremes and staying in contact so you can stay in balance, centred.

A direct experience. 

Let your spirit drift upwards by letting go of the lower vibrations that hold you down. Feel more spacious inside and let there be distance between you, your thoughts and emotions. Connect deeper inside of you and not the external self. Trust fully the flow of pure energy. Taking you to the deep vibrations within, connected more with spirit than with form. 

Get high! Higher in love, openess, beauty and appreciation. 

Spirit becomes your state. You drop back so far from the consciousness you have that knows only itself as an individual, to the individual consciousness falling in to Universal Oneness.

Love means, loving someone or something more than you love yourself. This is divine, transcendental love, unconditional and selfless love. 

So live, do not fear death, be here and now and move in the spiral of life back to centre, time and time again, til time comes to an end. Do not deny yourself the experience of life and whatever it presents. It is living.

Tonight in class, we will spiral and find our centre and rise up, whilst connecting deeper inside ourselves.

TUESDAY PM YOGA i-D 19:30-21:00 at Matter Wholefoods, BS5

Namaste.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

peace and unity

I'm searching to find
A love that lasts all time
I've just got to find
Peace and unity…

 

Releasing the pressure.

I have had the pleasure of being at Camp Bestival this weekend. In actual truth, the festival itself was not my cuppa tea, but I was with my tribe and some of the beautiful Bristol and Glastonbury community that I adore, so it was very enriching. The only music I watched, was these Leftfield legends below and the nostalgia that came flooding back was so vibrant. I particularly love this track, as the lyrics are so powerful and they feel so timely! 

Lyrics

I've got to stand and fight
In this creation
Vanity I know
Can't guide I alone

I'm searching to find
A love that lasts all time
I've just got to find
Peace and unity

I've got to stand and fight
In this creation
Vanity I know
Can't guide I alone

I'm searching to find
A love that lasts all time
I've just got to find
Peace and unity

Can you feel it?
Release the pressure!
Can you hear it?
Peace and unity.

Build's got this to keep your funky dance sway (eh-heh)
Why your laws have left me
Out of the king and out of the rain
Transalt movement is takin' over

Am I inferior?
Wow.....you are!

 

ARE YOU INFERIOR?! Can you hear it/ feel it?

It made me reconnect with music (always) and how it can be both so uplifting (we all know this of course), yet it can also be timeless. The lyrics and the beats. They can represent a place in time so vividly and yet when done so well, can also hold the same resonance moments, years and even decades later! So what is going on in the World here and now and why is this so?! How does it relate back to Yoga?! 

'Time and originality'. These are a powerful combination. I have this intense feeling in  my bones a lot, at the moment, that time is nothing and everything. Originality is authenticity. At times I rush and at other times I flow. Why? Sometimes I conform, but mostly I seek alternatives - why?

I have the haze of the festival running through my veins, where the mundane tasks of urban house living seems very much a zero priority and the pace is sllllooooooowwwwww and life return to 'normal'. Yet, I have this unbelievable desire and an activist sense of inspiration flooding in. The need to create change, to recreate, to achieve, in many aspects of the day to day life stuff and that feels iminent. What a contradiction. 

"Sonically we're in control. Be the diamond in your soul. Images come thick and fast. From the future, from the past." - Leftfield.

Your original, lead your own path. Your original.... 

Left field reminded me of originality and led me to more current artists and this video again, which I love for its blatant statementS. No more drama! I love her. She is full on! She is original. I like that. I feel the "outcasts against the world" vibe at the moment. Like life and the way we connect with living it conventionally, doesn't make any sense. Like, why should we go about accepting things as they are? What are these day to day life duties, bided by waking and sleeping anyway?!

These thoughts and the exploration of lyrics to express thoughts and feelings the hearing, the feeling, the seeing, the actioning... led me on to another of MIA'S videos... (strong language)

But what are we representing?!!! In your life - what are you representing? Are you a lone solider - your values? Your beliefs? Your families? The picture? Your boy/ girl?? Freedom? Power? The system.

I feel passionate about asking you all these exact questions????? As, I saw people getting off their faces, at what was essentially a family festival. It was direct escapism. It was carnage. We've all done it. But what's up with that?! Where are we? Are we connected? Is this a positive thing? There was branding everywhere through sponsorship, there was all the things one would ask for at the festival, yet like it was ticking a box, as opposed to thought and care in placing things in the right place for it to be an enhanced experience for all. The healing fields had hair straighteners in, no herbal tea on offer and was overpowered by the noise pollution of the loud vibing music. These are a couple pure observations, that simply baffled me. I didnt get the whole event. What it was offering?! What it was representing? Was it directly representing the mainstream cultural desires or is it trying to just be something that has music, check, has food, check, is in a field, check, people can party, check, throw in some healing vibes, check, and hey presto - its fun and we can call it a festival!???? 

I am uncertain as to what all this says about us all. The world that we live in. The way we choose to have pleasure and spend our time. 

I spent my time mostly in the healing fields and simply embracing fresh air, but it was because of my direct aversion to what else I was seeing around me. (I am only human and of course like to go crazy now and then) but I was intrigued - beyond that, in fact. At why?!!! What we do and why?

(Like the sages that retreated in to the forests to question consciousness and compiled The Upanishads - I am feeling this today. I am feeling like questioning the world around me.)

 What are humans representing currently? 

I find myself back here in Bristol, having retired to this urban jungle and wondering what is it all about when so far removed now from the earth elements and in four walls again. I have been reading a lot about 'awareness' this month, as a friend lent me a text and once again I have been intrigued to explore his pursuits and see how these readings resonate with my own exploration and life practice in Yoga.

I too have been taking more time to particularly watch the improv singing and dancing of my daughter and the lyrics she comes out with. It's been incredible when you truly listen and reflect. She is talking about 'i don't wanna play the bills'... 'i wanna see the sunshine, I wanna dance and sing'. Wow! She told her little brother that his old sword was bad because it was made of plastic and that his new dagger was great because it was wooden and he could use it to fight baddies. Wow!!!! Wow!!! Wow!!!!

What the f*** am I waffling on about this week I hear you say. Well...

"If you like what I am - you should stop trying to make more of me" - MIA. 

This comment in an interview is one of my favourite quotes, currently, from you guessed it - MIA, the lady in question.

I am feeling like this is a transitional period for people all over the World. I guess, I am reconnecting with my own 'artist' self and my art of living, my Yoga and my truth. I am trying to make sense of how to be here in the word, making connections and manifesting positive change. I try to make sense of life a lot, I always have done, call me an 'outcast' if you like - someone that doesn't just accept life as my eyes see before me. I now have the tools of my yoga practice to stay connected and find the unity, yet sometimes we cant find it and we ask ourselves, what am I looking for anyway. Why am I here? We get drawn to certain archetypes, people, things at different times. 

SO who is MIA and Why am I drawn to her today???

I found out that her namesake is from hindu goddess Matangi. She represents the outcasts, the underprivileged, and the untouchables.

Matangi is the goddess of music, spoken word and freedom of speech.

And MIA truly invokes and uses these powers it seems... MIA directed the video Borders herself and this became an incredibly controversial video, as it simply represents Reality! She represents reality! She is a popstar and she uses that gift to spread a message to the world. She believes that it takes sometimes striking images for us to see reality and reflect upon what is happening.  This video and many of her songs and videos, highlight how fear and hate can be fed to us and how important it is to look at the positives. How 'Multiculturalism' as an example, can do so much for creativity and community and that...

todays 'outsider' may have the answer for tomorrow.

She herself came as a refugee when she was 10 in the mid 80's from Sri Lanka. Today she is a successful political musician, that is actively fighting for the rights of the Tamil Independence movement. 

What I LOVE THE MOST about her is that in an interview she describes how her label said she could have it all, her ideas, her styling, her videos, her collaborators and so on, but that she had to let her voice, her opinions about the world, essentially, go! But she will not! 

SO THIS IS WHY I LOVE HER, AGAIN! Because she dosent accept things just as they are. She is fighting for peace and unity. For justice. For a better world. In this time, she is being original!

I powerfully feel this - we all have the power to be true to you and to make a difference. You don't have to have the namesake of a goddess. You can choose to work out what you are representing and live it!!!!!! 

 

I've got to stand and fight in this creation.

 

The Yantra of Matangi

The Yantra of Matangi

Matangi is one of the Mahavidyas, ten Tantric goddesses and a ferocious aspect of Devi, the Hindu Divine Mother. She is considered to be the Tantric form of Sarasvati, the goddess of music and learning. Like Sarasvati, Matangi governs speech, music, knowledge and the arts. Her worship is prescribed to acquire supernatural powers, especially gaining control over enemies, attracting people to oneself, acquiring mastery over the arts and gaining supreme knowledge.

The Mahavidyas (I guess like the variations of human beings) are said to all be different expressions of the same goddess, who take on different forms for the needs of her devotees. Matangi resides in the Throat Chakra and is radiant like the Moon. She is called upon to receive command over speech, creativity and knowledge. Matangi is also often referred to as the elephant power, who is in charge of restoring peace, calm, and prosperity after the terror of the night.

SO, REGAIN YOUR ELEPHANT GODDESS POWER!!!!!!

In yoga this week, we will explore what YOU represent. Your voice. Your human - being.  Come walk with me, breathe and move around to then ignite those 'super' human powers you hold!  

 

 

YOGA i-D CLASS IS ON TONIGHT! - TUESDAY PM 19:30-21:00 at Matter Wholefoods, BS5.

Namaste.

 

 

 

 

I'm a one way motorway, I'm a new day rising

Tonight, I am going to share with you these wonderful lyrics, as I cant say it any better than these words can... it's the summer! It is here! And transformation is happening in every moment. Take a listen to this. 

It's times like these, time and time again. It is times like these that we learn.... 

At the weekend a friend shared his wisdom with me,

"A lazy man, or woman, works harder."

Isn't it wonderful - Repeat. Sit with it. And let it resonate with you. Time and time again. 

Are you ready to remove those Kleshas (obstacles), feel in to your subtle energy body and move that physical body in to new dimensions. Are you ready To Learn. To Love. Again and again and again. Connectivity, truly, is a wonderful thing.

Through your yoga practice, enable your connections in your self help to make your summer come alive, in this time, in each and every moment. Time and time again. 

See you in Class.

Yoga i-D Tuesday PM 19:30-21:00 Matter Wholefoods, BS5

Namaste. 

 

 

Blogging, Vlogging, connecting, disconnecting, summer and silence.

Hey now.

So in over 2 years of writing this blog, last week, I skipped a week?! Did you notice?

For the first time in a while, I didn't blog. What I did do, was make some videos and post them. I made a Vlog too. You can check these out on the Yoga i-D youtube channel and links are also on the website. The big question is why? I know so many of you enjoy a little cuppa and a read. I could make up some wonderful tale about how it was because I was flying high somewhere exotic and I simply couldn't find wifi and send it over. But the simple Truth or 'Satya', as its known in yoga, is because, well, I am not super woman! No really, I may love the colourful lycra, but believe it or not, I am not super -human.

Satya is one of the five yamas, the virtuous restraint from falsehood and distortion of reality in one's expressions and actions. It means being true and consistent with reality in one's thought, speech and action.

 

This is a hard realisation, as there are times where I manage to convince myself that there must have been some super human powers injected in to me somewhere along the line, when the weeks go by and you are managing to complete, juggle and accommodate so much physically, mentally and emotionally. Well, this time, it was because all of that was still going on, but as a result of it, the expression of writing didn't come. Maybe it was that I was not inspired to write, maybe it was because time was limited or maybe it was because CHANGE was on the horizon, Change is here and now. Without consciously deciding to not write - I simply and unconsciously - didn't. 

I know that I was shifting (and still am) priorities and I know that I felt the need to therefore express myself in ways that felt suitable to me at this time. This felt like being on my mat, this felt like connecting with people in the real world more, this felt like reading new material and taking time to digest it rather than share it. This felt like managing relationships that are tender, this felt like shifting perspective on ongoing life situations, this felt like taking action for summer and this felt like bringing to a natural end, things that needed to end.

So on Thursday I taught my last class for Summer Break at Space 238. It was an incredibly wonderfully nourishing class. One that I did not plan, for I wanted to make it an intuitive offering that suited who arrived on the mats and the energy of the room. As a result, it was full of just ladies and we moved rhythmically and freely and it felt so incredibly relevant to intentions of summer. We focused on heart openers and creating space and freedom, by finding awareness in the present moment. Wow. It felt good to watch the free flow that these ladies, developed over the session, and the stillness they cultivated at the end. 

Last summer, I took no breaks and as a result, winter seemed to creep up and if the truth be known again, I found the winter a challenge, for I became chronically fatigued. Through this, I have become aware that I became attached, myself, to relationships and people that did not serve me. These continued in to the new year and it is only now that I feel like I am awakening, thanks to Spring too, where I can truly see what serves me - here and now. The summer is the time that I come alive. But what is important is not to just stay regulated to the devotions that you already hold, maybe that is to a certain belief, hobby, person... but to step out and feel in to a newness. See it and feel it in yourself too. Let your Yoga practice evolve, on and off the mat. Yet - cherish the things in your life that remain. 

Here's to the Things YOU LOVE!!!!!

If we return to the visualisation of super woman. Here she is... 

Well - she flys around, saving folk and expresses her super-human self. But. Who is she deep down?!

Never disconnect from the true self. Get to know it! Our appearance inwardly and outwardly too alters as the seasons and the years pass by and both can easily become unrecognisable at times, but it is essential to tap back in and find the Self. Be clear on what you are willing to tolerate, what you wish to manifest in your life, what you are proud of and grateful for and how you wish to live. Take time to welcome people in, but also take time to let people go. I have allowed people recently to take me on a ride time and time again and taking time and space have realised I wont allow that anymore. We are tough and we are soft. We are not available to be experimented upon. We hold the power to decide. My family keep me earthed, for which I am grateful. My children challenge me more than I could ever write down on paper.

I, in fact, find this my life challenge.

I see myself in them, I see their papa, I see the genes, I see the influences. All of this is the magical pot of heaven and the darkness, it is overfilling with love and it is heartbreakingly difficult. Being a mother, and now doing it alone, is bloody hard! But do you know, it teaches me about the Self quicker than any textbook or meditation ever could. It is my meditation. it is my practice. It is my discipline. It is this because I can not choose to walk away from it, it exists, it goes nowhere and it is here. Forever. I am soooooooo proud of the lives that I brought in to the World. I still can not get my head around the fact that I created life - twice. I feel blessed and I know that they were a gift. I believe that they chose me to become their mama and I believe they did this to teach me the lessons that I needed in this lifetime. I will never, ever, justify their existence to any other. I am so incredibly honoured and proud to be a mother and to say 'Look! these are my babies. These are my priorities in life, that sit alongside my personal drive, my passions, my work, my direct experience of life. These are my teachers!'

In Patanjali's teachings, one may not always know the truth or the whole truth, but one knows if one is creating, sustaining or expressing falsehood, exaggeration, distortion, fabrication or deception.

It is amazing since becoming a single mum, how when meeting new people, you sometimes do feel like you have to live a parallel life. But, I won't. Not anymore. For those who find children hard to accommodate, you are not for me. These angels are an extension of me and I would not be the person that I am today, without having become a mother and for that I will be eternally grateful. I will never be simply a mother, yet my ambitions in life clearly extend beyond this. I adore and respect those that never had little ones for either making a choice to or not, but each and every one of us can never change the past, nor can they or should they, ever, have to account for their present.

It is, what it is. I am, who I am. They are, who they are. And you are, who you are, with needs, wants and desires, just as they are. Own it. Love them. Adore and respect the Self... and the evolution of life will be what it will be. 

"I'd love to always love you, but I am scared of loneliness when I'm alone with you." - Truth is a beautiful thing - London Grammar.

These lyrics have really played a part of my journey to work the last few weeks, as I have been cycling on my bike around london and I can not tell you how many times that I have listened to the new London Grammar album en route. I realised that Loneliness is a factor in so much of what many people do, the decisions they make and those that they avoid making. We can be surrounded by friends, community, partners and children and yet can still feel lonely. I am someone, for sure, that loves to be around people. I do this quite naturally. But in fact, alongside that, there is loneliness and I am not afraid to admit it. I would love to connect on a very deep level with another, I would love to live in a community and chat til the cows come home all day, every day. But, where we always return is back to the Self. I see the loneliness creep in, when I am not being true to the Self. Offering enough time to the Self. Being honest. Patanjali's teachings that offer insight through Satya of how we deceive ourselves through the way we express the self and distort the truth is where we can focus and regain perspective on how we are living. 

So here we are - full circle - Self and Truth. 

Lies and Loneliness. 

The truth is hard. Yet be truthful. Love the Self. Do not project outward to another, be here and now. 

"To hold your heart, to hold your hand, would be to be, the greatest thing. Would you take my place and stand here. I do not think you would take this pain. Oh the truth would be a beautiful thing. Oh the truth is a beautiful thing."

These lyrics to me, sang to the Self. I thought they were singing to another, but in fact, they are singing many things to me. The greatest thing would, in actuality, be to be content fully in the self, to have the strength to standby and walk away from that which does not serve us and to therefore cultivate the Truth and watch the beauty of life blossom inside and out, when choosing to live this way. 

 

Sat Nam meaning 'I am truth'. 

"This is an 'Adi shako mantra' or a primal power mantra, designed to awaken the shakti energy coiled at the base of the spine, allowing it to vault upwards opening the higher consciousness chakras leading to deep wisdom and bliss states. It acts as a method of communication between your individual soul and the Universal soul." - Blissful Body Yoga.

When chanted outwardly or silently using the inhale and exhale, it sings Truth is my Identity, Truth is my essence. I invite you to chant this to yourself to begin your own Self connection. This is one of my personal favourite recorded versions of this mantra by Snatam Kaur. "Ek Ong Kar Sat Nam" meaning...

The Creator and the Creation are One. This is our True Identity. The ecstasy of the experience of this wisdom is beyond all words and brings indescribable bliss.

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As I sit here now, I am back in my hometown of Glastonbury, writing in my parents house, while they (party animals) are celebrating their friends 60th. I am grateful for this home from home, the house I grew up in. This earth land of Avalon. Keeping me supported and connected. As soon as I arrive here, I step outside and naturally wanna step on my mat. That is Truth.

Stand and take your place.

Stay connected to your heart and all the wisdom it holds - tis the greatest thing, the greatest gift, it is a beautiful thing. 

SEE YOU IN CLASS! YOGA i-D TUESDAY PM - 19:30-21:00 - MATTER WHOLEFOODS, BS5

Namaste.

 

The Dog Days are over... Life is precious and you hold the power!

A celebration of life and its powerful energy... give it away and it will come back!  

This weekend I spent the whole weekend celebrating birthdays, weddings, love and community. It was profound. I try to never take life for granted and fully live life and then we get reminded through loss, through expectation, how precious it is and how important it is to understand how you wish to live. Life can be taken away in a moment, life can be full of wonder, life can be unclear...

It led me to listen to a little of Alan Watts again... His words resonate, as essentially while we live we are navigating our way through the 'Want do I want from life?' question. He expresses thoughts far better than me so have a listen... 

'I don't know' is the same thing as I love. I let go. I don't try to force or control. It's the same thing as humility. 

He gives reference to the Upanishads, ancient Yoga texts that are like poetry. Giving us beautiful understandings to Yoga off the mat.

So do you you really know what you want? Do you have it? Can you ever know? I don't know. 

You loose the divine energy when you simply defend yourself - so the principle is, the more you give it away, it comes back. 

We are all in a process of constant death, in decay and so on... this decay is the great assistance to you. It is your helper, as Alan says.

You don't have to let go, because there is nothing to hold on to. It is achieved for you from the process of nature. If you really get with that, suddenly you find you have the power, huge energy. The power comes not because you grabbed it, but because this is the cycle of life - and that can be trusted. Trust it.  

In honour of life, breathing, living and all on this same journey of the unknown, attempting to navigate our way. We will keep the devotional aspect of last weeks practice, drawing the senses inwards and we will move our bodies towards finding this power that we can trust within. 

 

The Dog Days are over! Trust in your deep knowing and find that you have the power!  

Namaste

 

Girl on an island... i'll meet you there.

"There is a place where we one day will delve, where there is no more walking on egg shells. Where the canvas is bear and there is no more repair. I'll see you there" Alice Phoebe Lou.

Its coming.... 

So what happened to you after the full moon? Was there any insight? What did you take from Last weeks blog post?

Well... I had a birthday. It was fun. It was wild. It was insightful. It was reality as it was and it was like a blurry dream too. I felt very grateful. It is interesting to map these milestones and acknowledge how as that year passes from one to the next, many things change, yet some things never change. 

What I learnt, upon reflection this year, was that everything comes to us because its either a lesson or its because we attract it and create it. It rang so true, like a bell in my ear when I realised this, again! Because creation is a marvellous thing, its a wondrous ability that we have.

What does the future hold? Like in the video from last week that I shared, its a question of our own power and how we use it, to hopefully have a positive influence in the world, yet how we also use that power for own desires and needs. What are you using your power for? What therefore are you creating for yourself?

It brought me to pick up Patanjali again and I immediately arrived at the Yoga Sutra known as Asteya, translated as "Non Stealing". It says this... 

"To one established in non-stealing, all wealth comes." - Patanjali Book 2.(37) 

If you want to become the richest person, practice non-stealing. Knowingly and unknowingly we are all thieves. We steal from nature, down to the simple fact that we breathe natures air. Rather than stop breathing and die, it is the way in which we receive the breath that is described as what matters. If we receive each and every breath with reverence for the benefit of not just ourselves, but others too, we are not stealing. Stealing arises because of greed. Patanjali acknowledges that we want to do very little and receive a lot in return. If you repeat that sentence to yourself, is that you?

"If we are completely free from stealing and greed, contented with what we have, and if we keep serene minds, all wealth comes to us. If we do not run after it, before long it runs after us. If nature knows we aren't greedy, she gains confidence in us, knowing we will never hold her for ourselves."

This Yoga Sutra decribes how we all have the tendency to get something and then lock it up, whether that be passions or people. I love the way it is told by the story of how money was created round. It is round because it wants the freedom to roll and have freedom by rolling away if it needs to. By locking it up, it cries out "please, someone release me" and this cry invites a robber to come and save it by stealing. 

What all this is saying is that if you have the attitude: "if you want to come, come; when you want to go, go" the response may be, why do you push me away? Let me stay with you. Don't send me away." 

Maybe all of us have experienced this at times. Yet it is so refreshing. Why not do this everyday. They say often to watch what stays is the absolute blessings in your life. Be observant to what stays for you. Live in freedom and offer others to do the same, possessions, money, work. It all applies. 

Lack of trust and fear stops us from doing this act of inviting things to go and be free, and the kleshas play a part too. The need to cling to life, people, things.

Offer freedom!

The whole worlds economy is based on the other act of stealing where we stop others from using what we have, even if we have an abundance and they have none. We teach our children about sharing but as humans evolve, this lesson is often not learnt. Yet if we know how to care and share, it is said that no poverty or hunger need exist. It's true! 

So this takes us to the moon...

There is a beautiful analogy that Patanjali uses, he says,

"We can all ride to the moon. Yet, Q. When should we ride to the moon? A. When the earth is happy. People who don't know how to live here will end up taking their small hell to the moon."

Think about it. We have even move around the earth a million times, yet you take yourself with you, right. It is incredibly powerful to read and acknowledge this. 

At this particular moment for me, it resonates because I believe that we have patterns too. Like the stars in the sky. And sometimes things present themselves in a certain way, just maybe, so we have the opportunity to do it different this time around. But patterns are wonderful and patterns are hard to break. Patterns involve change, as a wonderful friend acknowledged all of this very wisely to me one hazy morning, change is hard for most of us. It is hard to see our pattern sometimes. It is hard to see our behaviour too. But when we do, maybe because someone else even points it out to us, is an opportunity for change, for growth. 

It requires patience and forgiveness. Both of others and of ourselves. 

"What I have i'll share with you. What you have, share with me. Let's forget this enmity and be together."

What I am learning is that, the only way to do things is with absolute honesty. It's high time to get rid of anxiety. One can not live long under such tension. 

Richness has nothing to do with momentary wealth. The richest person is the one with the cool mind, free of tension and anxiety. What we can use our power for is the ability to find joy and peace right here and now. How do we do it? By living in the present. Be happy in situations of tension, because we have decided to be happy. WE HAVE DECIDED TO BE HAPPY. Its a choice! Do not worry for the future. The whole earth could explode in a second. be free, be in the present.

"Do not worry about the past. It has already gone. To be happy this minute is in our hands."

We can change ourselves, our perspective and our actions and feel free as a bird. We can be serene and in that, make others more tranquil. Plague the world with Joy! 

"A carefree life is possible only with well-controlled mind, one that is free of anxiety, one without personal desires or possessions."

To end, i loved the lyrics from the video i shared last week...

"There is a place where we one day will delve, where there is no more walking on egg shells. Where the canvas is bear and there is no more repair. I'll see you there"

See you in class folks.

Namaste.

FULL MOON, MUSIC AND TRUTH

The FULL MOON happens tomorrow and so this blog is to be in two parts... today is Part 1.

Seize this day to recall your vision of the future and reconnect to the source of determination and courage within you to achieve it.

I share with you one quote, a link to the full article and then this incredibly inspiring video of this wonderful street performer. I'd like you to take from it what you will.

Stay tuned for Part 2 after this weeks Full Moon.

Join in on a special full moon Yoga practice this week to celebrate its coming! Take some time to bathe in the moon folks.

Namaste x

The power of curiosity and passionate pursuits.

"Life appears to me as a crisp and juicy apple that my young teeth can bite into with pleasure, revealing in their power and youth." - Paula Modersohn-Becker (first female artist to paint herself in the nude).

Isn't it incredible the way that life twists and turns and at times can offer you an abundance of inspiration, connection and love and at others there feels to be suffering, agitated minds and conflict. Well, I like to believe that we all experience these alternate states and yet we know that they are ever changing.

Currently it is the time of Beltane (half way between the spring equinox and the summer solstice) and I have ignited the fire (literally), got my hands dirty in the earth (mulching trees), bathed in the water (waterfall heaven just outside of Bristol) and got out in nature for some good old fresh air and blimey o riley - it felt good. I have also been working hard, seeing friends, looking after little ones and pursuing new opportunities here and there, whilst nurturing and maintaining relationships in all forms. The city can be a challenging place, especially living so close to one another and in such a way that we are hovered over by buildings that restrict our view, in more ways than one. I simply moved my desk upstairs so I feel like I am looking down from above more so and already I feel a spring awakening occurring from that simple action of changing the space around you. My kinesiologist once pointed out to me how important my environment was and he was right. I've been one of those people that from childhood, likes aesthetics and changing the space around me to compliment how nature is changing and how I am aware of how my internal world then changes too. 

I feel vitality reentering and this feels good. I am also experiencing new opportunities arising, making much more conscious choices in action to change and being accepting when others do it too and it has a direct impact on me. It happens. 

I love to read things that I would not usually read, or go put in places with people I don't usually hang with, or get involved in things that are not my usual thing of choice and I love love love the way this continues to ignite that internal fire and opens a new door of vision, relationships and connection. 

I guess this all comes down to curiosity... what if?!

I bought a copy of the magazine Milk and a copy of Flow and I have been nonstop inspired by most of the articles in each of them.  A few quotes I highlighted that felt relevant to the teachings of Yoga as a way of life were mostly relating to love, friendship, and slowing down. I guess we are drawn to those things that we feel we need or are priorities for us now.

I began 'Yoga i-D' as it is that, an identity. It is a place to come and practice Yoga in a way that connects you back to your own 'Self' and the identity that you give yourself outside of class and to learn how to detach from it, simply through connection and Yoga. I like to write this blog and offer you a little bit of thought or inspiration through a subject matter or sharing my own experiences week upon week, to encourage you in your explorations and own curiosities towards your art of living your own lives. What you do, the way you are, in turn benefits us all. 

A discovered a beautiful article today on the life of artist Paula Modersohn-Becker and it resonated with me where she is described as, through her diaries and letters around the time of 1901, being sensed to express her struggles to reconcile all her various identities: daughter, wife, woman, artist.

She died young and it was not until after her death that her art was celebrated and she became the first female artist to have an entire museum dedicated to her work in 1927. She was a pioneer of German Expressionism and devoted her life to art and her passions, known to have said "I know I shall not live very long. But why is that so sad? Is a party more beautiful because it lasts longer? Because my life is a party. A short intense party." She made landscapes and self portraits and was the first female artist to paint herself nude. She was enormously talented yet her husband describes her as being annoyed by her ambitions.

"I am me and I hope to become so more and more" Paula is quoted as saying.

I am telling you all of this as maybe life is just like biting in to a big juicy apple...

And, because I love this artist and all that she stands for.

I love that she was not afraid to acknowledge her struggles, I love that she was passionate and committed to her ambitions and the things that she loved, including maintaining her relationships and her art. This is a skill. To allow commitment to be something that we live by. To continue with what we feel passionate about, even when that becomes a challenge. To be bursting with anticipation and curiosity and continue to learn each and every day that she was alive. 

I offer you to take some inspiration from this marvellous artist...

HOW DO WE APPLY THIS TO YOGA?

Well because in a Yoga i-D practice it is not about the physical exercise alone. It is about the connections that you begin to make to your body, your life and your true innate self when you do Yoga.

This week ask yourself... What is your identity? Do you struggle with your ambitions and the various identities that you have? Do you push things or people away because you feel they conflict with those or get in the way of your pursuit for identity? Maybe you can write a short list what those identities are. What your passions are. Are you attached to them.

Heres a little layout of some of my identities... Free spirit, creative/artist, mother, friend, homemaker, yoga teacher, yogini, urban social media junkie, glastonbury soul, west country girl. 

Can you use your yoga practice to bring your attention to yours and to come out of those associations with identity, actually feel connected to the various forms, yet in the knowing that they do not simply define you.

Life is precious and we must all continue to slow life down, tune in to what our passions are and pursue those, yet knowing that it aint always easy, that we are individuals as well as dependant creatures that seek connection and that starts with knowing the Self. Truly and wholeheartedly.

Be curious. We live in the romanticism of life. What if we used suffering as a way of character development, that we changed romantic thinking for loving thinking. That we understood that Love is a verb; it is an action. Become devoted to your passions and live out your identities with the power of curiosity and connection. 

See you on the mat this week.

YOGA i-D CLASSES:

TUESDAY PM - 19:30-21:00 MATTER WHOLEFOODS, BS5

THURSDAY AM - 10:45-12:15 SPACE 238, BS5

Namaste.

 

 

 

A gift

A spiritual initiation—an exceptionally difficult life passage that shakes your foundations and makes you question your purpose—is just this sort of sea change. It's an opportunity disguised as loss; a chance to strengthen the thread of awareness that connects the outer part of your being to the inner, to descend deeper into the soul.

When the Kleshas (obstacles) arise in me... I move. 

See you in class as we explore this tonight (Tuesday) and on Thursday this week. 

Namaste.

 

We're up all night to get lucky...

We've, come to far, to give up, who we are. So lets, raise the bar, and look up, to the stars.

So its been mothers day. To each and everyone of us that will mean and symbolise many different things. Within it all, what it offers us is to connect to where we came from. Who we are now?! We each were brought in to this world by a mother, of some kind. Good or not, we arrived out of a woman and in to this world with a life ahead of us. And if you are reading this now, it means, you are still here, living it! 

"A mythical bird that never dies, the phoenix flies far ahead to the front, always scanning the landscape and distant space. It represents our capacity for vision, for collecting sensory information about our environment and the events unfolding within it. The phoenix, with its great beauty, creates intense excitement and deathless inspiration." - The Feng Shui Handbook, feng shui Master Lam Kam Chuen

Like the legend of the phoenix. What keeps the planet spinning..... 

This inspired me to read up about this legend.... the phoenix. It symbolises renewal, in general, as well as the sun. A mythical creature, the phoenix is a long-lived bird that is cyclically regenerated or reborn, Wiki tells me. 

Associated with the Sun, a phoenix obtains new life by arising from the ashes of its predecessor. According to some sources, the phoenix dies in a show of flames and combustion, although there are other sources that claim that the legendary bird dies and simply decomposes before being born again.

The ancient Egyptians linked the myth of the phoenix with the longings for immortality, the Arabian phoenix was said to be as large as an eagle, with brilliant scarlet and gold plumage and a melodious cry. In Chinese mythology, the phoenix is the symbol of high virtue and grace, of power and prosperity. It represents the union of yin and yang. It was thought to be a gentle creature, alighting so gently that it crushed nothing, and eating only dewdrops. The japanese Phoenix, was said to mark a new era by decending from the heavens to do good deeds for people only to return to its celestial abode to await a new era. In other traditions, the Hou-ou apears only in rare peaceful and prosperous times.

I guess, my readings about the phoenix made me draw a comparative to the mothers. The complete different forms of mothers and motherhoods that exist or have existed over time. What it then made me contemplate was identity. Of course, this is a passion and a constant exploration in the Yoga and Philosophical context of Yoga i-D. And what I am drawn to, is how there is something powerful in these various tellings of the Phoenix and the story that surrounds it, in thinking that we never really see ourselves or truly know what legend/story we are telling and may, one day, leave behind. We never can really know what we look like. (This is both externally, but also on the inside). Never really 'seeing' what we offer out and what lives within us. 

The 'M' word. There are many of them.

Myths. One other 'M' word.  I love them, because they are 'myths'. A story that is not true.  We could say that our perceptions of ourselves are like myths, often. However, if we explore the truth...  a legend is a semi-true story, which has been passed on from person-to-person and has important meaning or symbolism for the culture in which it originates. A legend usually includes an element of truth, or is based on historic facts, but with 'mythical qualities'. 

So what's your personal 'myth'/ story from birth til now? And what is your legend?

I guess, it will depend heavily on who is telling it, from whose point of view, as to what context it will take - right?? 

So from birth and its ongoing cycle of life... is it like a waiting game? We live, we create stories in our lives, we associate with these as becoming ourselves and create an identity that we believe is what we are, we make mistakes, we learn, we grow, we change, we evolve, and then... what are you waiting for? For someone to one day tell your story? What would your story look like? Would you live and die again and again if you could like a Phoenix? Maybe we do. It is a topic for conversation (Possibly not right now). But, we have a story that involves how we got here. And all that followed, until now. Are you attached to that story? Do you live by that story? Do you always play a particular character within the story? Do you try and detach from that story, ever? It is interesting to ask yourself these questions. With the rise in social media, we are almost using the various platforms to form our identity and create those perceptions of our life stories to the world now, as we go, leaving our myths in fact behind us 'online'. Not our legends. Would you agree? 

In Yoga, we consider this living with attachment to a story or anything in fact, a restraint on our way to spiritual development. A Yama. 

'Aparigraha' meaning Non-possessiveness/ Non-attachment is the 5th Yama of Patanjalis Yoga Sutras. (A WHAT? I HEAR YOU CRY!) 

A Yama is translated as a 'restraint'. The Yamas form a set of 5 principles that are part of a sage named Patanjali's 8 limbed Path, in a classical Yoga text entitled 'The Yoga Sutras'. The 8 limbed path includes 1. Yamas 2. Niyamas (observances), 3. Asana (postures) 4. Pranayama (Breath Control) 5. Pratyahara (Sense Withdrawal)  6. Dharana (concentration) 7. Dhyana (Meditation) 8. Samadhi (Unity). If we live with attachment - what happens? Well, often it feels good - we are in that false state of security and that feels safe. But, Patanjali describes that it is a false sense of truth. We could say 'a myth'. In order to fully live... we must learn to detach and trust life like we trust the breath to flow in and out. 

So, are you feeling the need to fly like the Phoenix and to cut loose from attachments? Well literally in the stars, so called this is where we are at now, with infinite potential in the unknown. 

On Tuesday this week, there will be a NEW MOON. This is the beginning of the Vedic New Year and the myth says, within the mystical waters of this Pisces new moon, sleeps a mysterious water dragon named Ahirbudhnya.  Hidden under the deepest ocean of pure love and peace, this deep-sea kundalini dragon is said to sleep coiled at the bottom of the cosmic ocean. Like the kundalini snake at the at the base of the supportive root chakra, Ahirbudhnya is said to hoard a hidden treasure of infinite wealth and abundance.

Overall, this new moon teeters on the edge of the unknown, and offers the world a powerful regenerative boost.  Uttara Bhadrapada is called “the warrior star” and is well-known for its compassionate determination and its fighting spirit. It gives the power to see beyond the entanglement of this world and to sublimate frustration and despair into wisdom and understanding. Open your heart to the natural support of this new moon and step forward like a warrior into a new cycle of life.

So lets explore your story in your Yoga practice this week, the character you play, the attachments you hold and then lets set an intention to detach and embrace the NEW! It's an ongoing theme, but a very extensive one that is lasting a few weeks of transformative time and therefore at Yoga i-D HQ, we are riding on the back of the dragon/ the phoenix and letting it come transform and inviting our Yoga to compliment it.

In class, we will breathe and Mmmmmmmmmmmmmm.... move and meditate on the myths, the magic, the mothers and the mayhem of it all, to create an encompassing moment of connectivity with vision, sensory awareness and peace. 

Come, get on your mats, move and meditate, then let this exist off the mat too!

Namaste Yogis and to you all, Happy Mothers Day.

MONDAY AM 10:00-11.30 @ SPACE 238, BS5

TUESDAY PM 19:30-21:00 @ MATTER WHOLEFOODS, BS5

THURSDAY AM 10:45-12:15 @ SPACE 238, BS5